And he asked me if I think it's good and I said that it's making me train more and train harder which is good and I'm making me more driven and productive which is good but that it's increasing my impulsivity which is bad
I have 3 interviews on Monday and I can't afford to fuck them up by going on tangents about how much I hate the shit SA which happens when someone asks me bout shit SA which they generally do
Impulsivity drives this even more so he decided to increase my does of the other bipolar drug which is much milder so hopefully that works
I just gotta tell myself not to go off on that fucking topic I can just say something like I feel better in eastern Europe
Also he told me only drink for one night not 24+ fucking hours
You posting style alone indicates that you are in a much better place than a few months ago.
Manic DJ is quite a handful lol
I would advise against taking anxiolytics before your interviews; there is a risk it lowers your inhibitions.
Tell them that as a foreigner you love Russia/ TheRussian Federation. Learn a few cultural aspects characterizing the Russian soul - they will greatly appreciate it. Trust me.
A few key words in Russian are always welcome. Nothing too complicated like :
- Formal greeting : SDRA - STVU - ITI
- It's a pleasure : OCHEN - PRI - YATNO
- Thank you : BLA - GO - DA -RIU
- Russian Federation : RA - SSI - ISSKAYA ------- FEDYE - RA - TSI - YA
- Russians : RA - SSI - YA - NE
( don't say "RU - SSKI - YE )
- Russian "soul" : RU - SSKI ------- DOUKH ( kh as in "aHmed")
( I altered some spelling to make it more intuitive for you)
Don't worry about botching pronunciation.
Good luck