😕 what happened? You ok now?
Had another pancreatitis episode. I hope I'll recover well. Surgeon said he is rarely surprised looking at scans but I seemed to be doing very, very well with little internal damage considering how sick I was. My kidneys almost shut down completely and I couldn't get an x-ray until after 10 days since the contrast solution they use can damage the kidneys further if weak. Now I have a very weak body and a swollen belly due to fluid build up. I can almost get my hand around my upper arms. Looks really bad

I know from previous experience that I could inflate back up in just a few weeks but I want to be conservative and not use more than legitimate TRT or just above

Not my experience then. And just observing natural power lifting vs enhanced the number difference is more significant than that. And sure, "the look" on steroids sure is different. Because of other factors than just muscle fiber size increase. Things like increase in blood volume, blood pressure, water retention etc. Increases the swelling size of the muscle.
Anyway i just googled a study of 600mg of test anministred to 40 men. The strength avg increase of their bench was 22%. Squat was 38%(!). So avg increase in strength 30%.
My strength increase @300mg- +15%, their strength @600mg- +30%
Pretty telling for me that strength is very much correlated to dosage 
Well the thing you might have missed is that this is in powerlifters who are elite and "specialists" already, guys who are truly maxed out naturally. No lesser expert than Charles Poliquin threw out that quote about 10% vs night and day in bb. Also if you gain a ton of weight on drugs it will affect strength more vs staying pretty much in a weight class. My friend went from a 300kg deadlift to 330kg in the years he juiced. Depending on how you looked at it that could be considered huge. I went from 130 x 1 on incline to 180kg x 2 on my first Dianabol cycle. That's a 115lbs increase for double the reps

Some "experts" opine test doesn't even really start working in a PED kind of way until 250mg due to some type of level having to be reached. I don't think that's really correct. Watched a young guy at the gym get on legitimate TRT and the change was insane. He was truly hypogonadal and he was truly in normal range after the Nebido was put in since this wasn't a "longevity" or "sports TRT" clinic.