Im sleeping at home for the last night for a couple days. Hopefully history will repeat itself for me and I will come back come a class winner. Im so excited to know, one thing......I have done what i set out to do. And I did it good! I think. I did not cut corners. I did not make excuses.
I did not avoid tough exercises, training, cardio, meticulous dieting. I did not slack off. Not one fuckin bit. Not during my 16 week prep or my entire off season. I made each workout count! Each day I drive to the gym, I think about training. I want to be there. I dont train because Im supposed to. I train, because I like to, I want to. I have to! This is it. Shows are won in the off season. And I had a hell of a off season.
Dieted all year for this baby. Like i said, it was fun though. I was on a mission and here I am. Soon to board the plane. So damn excited, a little scared of course but shit, I shouldnt be. Going alone, heck, this is a loners sport anyways. What can I say. Im going to do the damn best I can. Hope its enough. One way or another. I am not at my peak. No offense to some, but some guys get worse with each passing year. Their best days are behind them, they used to be this, they used to be that. They used to be good. Im sure. But crap, what about now. Bodybuilding is a not an instant gratification sport, it takes time. I havnt been around that long, but i have been competing for six years straight, 2 shows a year. No breaks or layoffs. Thats not that long but I have never given up and I think I have gotten better each time. But like I said, my best is yet to come. My conditioning is somthing Im really proud of. I wont sacrifice that for size ever. I rather be small and hard than big and soft. Im gonng gradually put some size on, and if I dont, screw it, oh well, I can always take my shirt off all year and be proud. I think conditioning and what it takes to get conditioned is what bodybuilding is all about.
To me, its not about big smooth muscles but dense, hard, quality to your muscle with separation and dryness. Thats just what I like, and of coure that is what Im striving for. So, maybe Ive done enough this time, maybe not, maybe I did too much and overtrained. Maybe not, I think i did just enough. I feel ready. I hope its enough! thanks guys, and atleast I tried my hardest! peace out!