im getting off the anadrol for the next couple of days at least...the strength gains are good...i dont even mind dealing with the lower back pumps and the headaches...what i cant deal with is the sleep and the even more of a mental head case this is turning me into...for pretty much the past week my sleep has been shit...i dont fall asleep until far too late...and the quality of sleep i get sux...i always feel tired when i want to sleep but restless and unable to sleep at the same time...last night did it for me though...i didnt sleep at all...i lay there for over 6 hrs and could not sleep...as a result i am not training tonight and i am going to push it to about 8-9pm and make sure i eat a lot today...then i will take 4 Rx oxycontin and hopefully sleep my ass off until 7-8 or so the next morning...i think i will feel better...much better after that...b/c of my lack of sleep i dont have the raging sex drvie like i did a little over a week ago and i certainly dont feel as aggressive...my training sux and i dont really even feel like eating or cookin....i just feel lazy and sluggish and want to lie in bed and watch dexter all day (great show btw) ...im sure some of it is in my head...girl problems...dealing w/school and all the other shit i have to deal with...im a very nervous and worrisome person to begin with...and i know the adrol is making it worse...so the next 3 days ill take a break from it...get back on a more normal sleep cycle and hopefully get everything back on track...if this persists...and i guess even if it doesnt im going to the doc to the doc to get some ambien or lunesta...or some good Rx sleeping aid...
Honestly, just as Xfactor just said, this is part of the reason i don't use AAS anymore. most guys on here are too macho to admit that problems like this CAN happen from using steroids. i don't think everyone gets these problems, but i can say that i have in the past. i've done many cycles that i felt fantastic on and i've done other cycles that sent me on an emotional rollercoaster, using the same compounds. stress from life will play the biggest roll in this of course, as i have seen that typical daily stress can be multiplied 100 fold when on a heavy cycle. for your own good, throw those oxycotin in the trash and just end your cycle. run a good long pct and train natural until you get your head on straight. i've always been a level headed guy and sometimes gear made me feel insane and i don't like that. in the end you must think of YOURSELF and YOUR FUTURE. you seem like a good guy and i hate to see people dealing with bullshit like this. stay away from antidepressants and sleeping pills. come off the shit and get your life back on track. reread this entire thread and see how happy you have been in the past. find yourself again and then worry about using steroids.
Good luck with whatever you choose. i've been clean for a long time and sure i'm not as big and strong as i was, but i feel like a million bucks every day.
