Hey man, thats what its all about helping eachother out, I want you to reach your goals my man. I'm just saying I noticed in every picture you ever posted you had this sad/miserable/vacant expression on your face, I just thought you were a sad guy who had no broads, so you just focused on training to pass time, now that you have stated that you're married and you posted your diet and training regimen, it all makes sense.
Ah... Dont worry. Thanx mate.

Ok. I explain my life.
I am married for 8years. But 3 years ago, my wifes mental problem grew and couldnt stay with me anymore and she start to go to doctor. Her family thought that it was my fault and that was very hard for me. I even tryed to commit suicide.But still maintaing my company. That was really hard part of my life.
But since i do Taoism, that recuperate my mental state gradualy. Now I fully recovered and i decide to try to live my life freely.
So now i have money and time now. I can dedicate what i want. And one of them is BBing. Thats it.

ABout meditation, when you are an expert, its same as sleeping. So I do it from 12 of midnight to 3am. I wake up at 9:00
I was a club dancer when i was at around your age(26yrs old). That was fun too. But now i dont need it. Cus I really really partyed a lot!
I always try to live my life till i am satisfied.
