its very hard mentaly, its hard when your off for a while as u stop gettn those big pumps.. if u stick at it and keep the training and eating up you wont look as bad as u think, depending if youve had a good natural base to start with...
I used to compete at 16.7st and walk around at 19st pluss,, now im walking around at 16.7 with abbs and a little bit size that i can easily maintain even with a sack load of injuries, no more walkin round like a gorrilla, look good at the gym/beach/bedroom/nightclub, so thats enough to keep me happy..
my advise to anyone coming off after some heavy use is to realy taper down..if it doesnt feel right go back on again with lighter dose and taper down again and so on and so on,,, but as i mentioned, if u didnt have a good natural base to start with, you might be in for a shock..
And even tho i am happy with how i look now, id still jump at the chance to gear up again and force feed etc etc if my dodgy joints healed up,,,, so your never realy cured, you always think theres another bang left in you....