Regarding this situation, I have thought about it a lot over the last 24.
As most of you know on here know, I have bipolar depression and borderline personality disorder. That kid talked about how bb.com was like all he had etc etc. Look, as lame as it sounds, getbig.com is my outlet and one of the few joys I have. I have very very few friends in real life because I am hard to hang out with as I tend to change moods ultra quick. I don't leave my apartment much because I am prone to violence in public. So ya, its weak, but getbig is like a little community for me that I dont have irl.
I think about suicide a lot, but not in the manner of running out and doing it. For years I have struggled with voices at times that tell me to just go out and do it. I did the pill thing once also, not much fun having a 3 foot plastic tube shoved into your stomach through your mouth. Ya, I get fucked up, but offing myself is a selfish thing to do and I do anything in my power to beat that issue. And to do it on camera, man I just don't get that. But I do understand what that kid was going through, and I feel for his family. It's been tough on my family too, and I hate putting them through this shit.
The people who egged him on and especially the one who phoned him and told him to die homo, I hope karma meets them one day. No matter whether they are serious or not, when someone is talking about killing themself, take it seriously and don't be retarded and tell them to go for it.
In essence, I relate strongly to that kid who did that yesterday. I think what he did was shitty, but depression can be a huge struggle. And to people who say "snap out of it" or "its in your head"--fuck you. Anyways, I just wanted to vent about what happened, thats all.
cliff notes:
bb.com kid kills self
sometimes internet community is all we have
I have depression and borderline personality disorder
suicide is lame--but I understand
people who egged him get bad karma
just me venting blah blah blah
