why people who look tlike that get on stage i'll never know.
seriously, do you see something in the mirror others don't when they look at you? maybe you think you look good and it's the rest of the world thats wrong?
you are not cut out for competitive bodybuilding. you use steroids and still cannot build a decent physique.
stick to training for enjoyment, not for competitions. run HRT doses. quit embarrassing yourself.