been alternating between a carb-heavy breakfast (yogurt, cereal, nuts) and a low-carb breakfast (eggs, meat). i definitely look forward to carb-heavy breakfasts more, but then again they also give me the insulin spike, crash, etc... so i dunno. carb breakfasts are also easier to prepare.

Dude, you're already ripped. Why not switch to a decent off season to pack more muscle?
i dont have much interest in more muscle, nor confidence that i get any. i just want to be sane... i need to get healthy. i'm very frail and easily exhausted at this point.
but anyway i never had any interest in "on season", "off season". i never understood the fascination with being in a "contest shape" which you can't hold indefinitely, always swinging back to an ugly "bulked" look. i wanted to be exactly the same all year: lean, muscular, and strong.
well, i was lean, muscular, and sick. unfortunately, i failed at the most important of the three goals.
that said, the more i ask for advice on these forums, the more confused i get. i think i would fucking starve to death eating the same way as other posters. look at thong maniacs post... that looks like something i would eat for one of three meals.