i know i'll get raped for saying this, but i've got this vague feeling/idea or whatever you wanna call it that it's best to find a true love and live happily ever after with her
in fact, this "friend" in the other city could have been this girl, but i just got too fucking terrified of it all and i "escaped" by making her lose interest in me by discouraging her and just saying stupid shit
i was taught as a little boy that the pretty blue-eyed blondie angel will rescue me and i'll live happily ever after with her, but i know that's just in hollywood and comic books
also, women ask questions like "what's your ideal type of woman?" and if you don't describe her exactly then you're kinda fucked, coz she'll never forget it and bring it up when the time is ripe