trust me, God exists. Over the summer I contemPlated being the anti-Christ, and when I was in solitary confinement in jail I tried to make a deal with the devil. I can now tell you, that if you ever do try to do that, and you are sincerely aching in your heart to make that deal, the devil will come. Luckily for me, for some reason I found favor with God and have been protected (for the most part). But I tell you what, when you feel like your spirit is turning into pure evil, and you feel a blasphemous heart raging into your body with fury, and you start to pray to God from a humble place, then you might experience why I did in that situation: like an earthquake erupting all around you. And you will know that satan or one of his demons is throwing everything they possibly can at you to corrupt you or kill you and that God has blessed you with a shield. God is real my friend. Jesus is real. Satan is real. An the bible, believe it or not, is the literal and perfect history of this world. Satan has poisoned our culture and sciences for so long, an done such a good job that smart people like you are completely fooled by him. I was too. Every single human who has Ever lived has in some way been deceived by satan to some extent. He was the serpent in the garden, and he is still today. He was one of gods most powerful angels and now him and his demons , still with their angelic powers, but bent on taking as many of gods people with them to hell and destruction as possible, deceive te world. And their biggest success has been false science and the denial of Satan himself. Pray to God humbly, tell him you are a sinner, that you can't make it with out him. And only when you approach with that humbleness OF KNOWING your infinite inferiority and wickedness and total dependence on him will he give you any response. You can not expect any response otherwise.
This is proof right here God is a CRUTCH for the weak. The moment a weak human being faces deep and tormenting suffering they bail out, they look for comfort and ways to repress, deny or minimise their suffering. The TRUTH is, if you face your deep well of suffering and not repress or deny it, you will uncover a vast pool of wisdom and knowledge you never knew existed. By running to a non-existent but comforting deity you stunt your emotional growth, you literally throw away the gift that has been given you. Your pathetic weakness and wretchedness is preventing you from growing exponentially as a human being.
The next time you feel your spirit is turning into pure evil, and you feel a blasphemous heart raging into your body with fury, don't run from it, don't try and pray it away, explore those feelings, go deep into them, this will be your salvation, and not some pathetic attempt at eliminating or pushing such feelings away using a false deity. These feelings are the key to you learning who YOU ARE, what you believe and think and feel. This is your ticket to an authentic self, a genuine human being capable of real honesty.
