At least I'm trying. Nobody is very encouraging except for a few people. I will show yout hat I can do it!
Mrs.Muscles, you're new to GetBig, so you might not be familiar with its history.
I understand that you feel as though you're being attacked, ...but please trust me when I tell you, you're not.
Montague, Princess L, and Necrosis have done one heckuva job turning this board around, cleaning it up, and completely transforming it from the absolute cesspool it was back in 2003/2004 when I first started posting here, and have the
well earned & well deserved respect of posters here including myself. Their influence is such that they even have a civilizing effect on some of the other boards.
In my experience not one of these mods has ever bullied, or condoned the bullying of others.
They just engage in tough love. They give good advice, and are extremely knowledgeable.
In the pursuit of our goals, we can have only one of two things: RESULTS or EXCUSES, but we can't have both.
ps: if you want to get on Princess L's good side, .......
pssst: FISH OIL 
pps: now to my original reason for even responding before I went off down the bunny trail, don't fall into the trap of doing it to show anyone but yourself. Having been the object of a few haters over my lifetime, I realize that anger may fuel motivation... for a quick moment or two, ...but it's not sustainable. When it comes down to it, jealous haters, or loser Internet trolls are completely irrelevant in your life, so it's impossible to sustain the level of anger, or even conscious thought to these cretins in order to keep you motivated. Do it for no one but you. Your love for yourself, and your desire to accomplish whatever you desire and your faith are the only constants that will sustain you through this process. Good Luck, and Much Success To You.