Once you get to the point of physical addiction (drinking night and day, every day), withdrawals can be deadly. Wouldn't detox at home, my friend; it could kill you.
Also, Xanax, or whatever you're taking for anxiety is incredibly addictive, too. Withdrawals from benzos are hell, too. How many mg per day?
Well, I can't take certain types of medication due to my line of work. Am on Lexapro, at the moment. Which is incredibly embarrassing, btw. I remember the first time I had an anxiety attack. Thought I was having a heart attack. Scary shit.
Yeah, I hear ya on the detoxing.
I'll be honest ... this thread has really opened my eyes. Plus, I've received a couple pm's. Sad thing is, is that I know I have a problem. And I hate being addicted to alcohol. But definitely easier to deal with it when speaking to those who have been there.
Really should go back to AA. But some of the fuckers that show up there have some really serious issues that go beyond alcohol. Fuck that. I still go to work everyday and pay all my own bills. I function. Just tend to go overboard pretty much every night in the alcohol department. And, of course, there's pussy, too. Haha.