Problem is I drink, fuck girls, do coke, then next day im totally hungover and I have to eat shit and miss training sessions. Then repeat few days later.
When I was 18-27 I can just drink ever other day and nothing affected too much.
Now it takes me 3-4 days to recover. This is the problem.
Last night got mashed, today fucked, just eat and sleep and wank all day.
worst habbit is easiest kept.
I wouldn't brag a ton how you've been able to drink all your life without a hangover untill now, neither

I have a problem of doing nothing productive, but I don't use drugs or drink. I'm just a manic depressed and lazy. If someone called me to a party, I woudn't go, the idea stresses me and bores the hell outa me. Untill I go to that party.
You live the way you do to hide the frustration and mental pain, but in the process you destroy yourself in the long run
At the end of the day you're the only one who can help yourself, and you have a choice to do everything opposite each day you wake up. Starting from the bottom is a pain in the ass, but you stay there forever if you let yourself and then you're in more pain.
Chances are, we'll never make it... but what the hell, better than "searching a meaning of life" despite all the money, nice homes, family and friends. When you are hungry, you start to look at people like that as if they don't exist, with their plans, dreams and all that. You are the boss of your own life. You know what you are.