So how about something between this faggy lean look and pro bb'ers? Seriously man, a lot of guys using gear now for what can be done natural.
I don't care about gear use, since it's a personal choice, so I just look at the result.
Don't know why he'd have to go for some "between" look. Most people out grow this who "big" thing eventually, as they realize there's no practicality to it, and they're better off health-wise not artificially forcing their bodies to carry more bulk than they're supposed to.
Like I said, to each his own, but after reading that you're using insulin and not competing, I just can't identify going through all that just for cosmetic purposes.