God gives you a wake up call (saves you). You are very appreciative. Subsequently you make several positive changes in your lifestyle to avoid another mini stroke or repeat occurrence of whatever ails you. Despite what you believe are your best efforts, you have another episode, only this time it's much worse. So much so that when your doctor visits you in the ER, he gives you some very bad news and that is you'll never recover or even make it another week before you die. How do you feel about God now? Do you think God abandoned you when you needed all the saving you could get? Do you feel guilty and that you somehow deserved this ending?
Sin, confession, absolved....sin, confession, absolved and on and on hoping not to die after committing the next offense and before getting to confession.
