I hate to say this because it isn`t easy......been down in the dumps all fucking day.
My GP called me this morning and informed me that I had some trouble with my Larynx/Trachea area that showed up on one of the scans.
I appreciate immensely all of the well wishes from you guys,I honestly do, and I trust that you honestly believe that because if you know me when I`m serious,I always try to keep it real.
PLEASe don`t PM me right now...........I actually break down with every PM that I`ve gotten.......you guys are fucking awesome people,even though I`ve only actually met a few of you in real life........I know you guys are fucking great because of the sincerity in your messages to me and they mean more to me than you could ever possibly imagine.......I truly mean that......I just cannot handle PM`s right now.
Lots of appointments starting tomorrow with a Cancer specialist and a ton after that.
It is what it is,but ironically,when I was a raging active alcoholic,I couldn`t have cared less if I woke up in the AM or not....didn`t give a flying fuck !
Now that I have put all of that BS behind me,I cherish life and don`t feel like cashing in my fucking chips yet.
Be assured that I will battle this fucker with all I`ve got mentally and medically....I quit being a quitter 20 years ago.
Not to sound faggy,but you guys are the best.
Once I get a handle on my emotions,I`ll update you guys as to my condition.
Christ I feel like a smarter better looking more masculine version of fucking Derek Anthony ! LOL

I won`t quit fighting,you guys know that,I just cannot deal with too much dwelling on this shit at the moment.
Thanks again my brothers in IRON.....all the best to you all !!