Well, my new "rollator" walker is due this week and I failed on that resolution not to have to use one...So my new and even more upset with myself resolution is to stay out of the wheelchair the doctor has said is coming for me. I visited my brother and his wife in Tucson and she is an ICU nurse and they let me try out a walker there.
It is humiliating. But to put things in perspective a friend of my brother had a massive stroke back when I had my humongous heart attacks and that stroke rendered him an invalid. He cannot walk at all. I wanted to visit him but my brother knew better than to allow me to do that as I don't think I could take that poor man's reality and would try to work up the nerve to drive off a cliff. But not over the ocean as I knew I would survive and drown, LOL! My brother visits him frequently and helped him sell his motorcycles as he cannot ride not even a trike.
So my resolution is to not ignore myself. I have PT and a doctor appointment this week and having been humbled at my last PT because I didn't want to park in the Handicapable space and then had another patient park so close to my car that when I tried to get in I fell backwards and was stuck between the two cars until I could pull/wiggle out. The man came out and saw me get free and then quickly got into his car and left without saying a word. I will park in the Gimp Spot from now on, LOL!
So that is my resolution. Do not ignore yourself my friends. I do not want a wheelchair ever. I had no idea how strong my legs were until I came here and spoke with Coach and then another gentleman that was also a strength coach in Florida. Now I am lucky/fortunate/blessed to be walking let alone (still!) alive. I didn't really ignore my injuries but many times I had no idea I was injured. So again. Do not ignore yourself.
Happy New Year!
