I stay very lean now, till a couple weeks ago around 8%. Can't get much lower without a very shitty diet, and I enjoy food.
IDK, I miss being huge. But, I do not miss having to eat constantly, and sitting there flexing my arms and chest because they feel soooooo good from having trained them a day or two before.
I also do not miss stressing in the mirror because my right pec is flat while my left is big and full, or that my left lat is much bigger and fuller than my right. Or that my right vastus lateralus won't develop etc etc.
What I DO miss, I fucking miss triple drop set leg presses with my buddy and 12 45s a side on top. I fucking miss front squatting 315, I definitely miss deadlifting 405, I really really really miss heavy heavy training. There was NO feeling like it, never in my life.
I can't train heavy without getting pretty big, maybe there is a middle ground...But of all the aspects of bodybuilding I miss the most, the intense heavy training was definitely it. I lived for it from the time I was 14 til 25.
I remember being 16, and doing incline db presses with 70's, and at night I would dream about hitting the 90's and how big I would be. Ah memories...