Thank you for posting this, FitnessFrenzy.
As for helping me spiritually...nah. I'm spiritually dead right now.
I don't mind sharing every story, but my friends tell me not to.
I've been lied to so much, I'm just spiritually defeated. Not dead - but in some way it's worse than being dead.
I'm reminded of Vanilla Ice in 1994, and how he wanted to commit suicide. He had $25 million in the bank - yet wanted to commit suicide.
I'm not suicidal, luckily. I'm spiritually defeated, which makes me hesitate to start new projects.
Seeing a White female police officer in town get assaulted by an Indigenous woman...and for the COP to be reprimanded...it just makes me want to avoid people.
In Georgia, a police officer [last name = Rolfe] was fired for shooting Rayshard Brooks, who punched his partner, and shot a taser at the head of Rolfe [he missed].
Is this the world we live in?
I have some potential, even still at 39. I could throw my hat in writing [non-fiction], I could start another website or YouTube channel [non-bodybuilding], I could exceed all my previous top lifts...I could do some things.
But again, I'm spiritually dead.
Probably 1 of 2, or 1 of 3 times I go out without a mask, some paranoid hysteric gives me a scowl. I'm surrounded by overweight, opioid-addicted alcoholics here in Canada, who are condemning me for not being sick.
It's just depressing.
And that's just COVID.
How does one rebuild trust after being lied to so much?
Today is another day on the couch for me, watching TV in my empty house.
There's a lot I can do...but I take things personally more than most people. And when I commit to a project or help someone, it's not casual - I go "ALL IN". So if I get treated poorly, I tend to resent it deeply, and not want to try again.
On the plus side...my physical health and home workouts are going well. My medical tests have all been good.
I'm blessed. Don't ever let me tell you otherwise. But I am spiritually defeated. We live in a world where stating observable facts can get us in trouble.
And every time I want to commit to a project, I stop and think...do I want that to be me?
Again, thank you for posting Richard Cooper. I went to high with a Richard Cooper. I also like and recommend Better Bachelor: