He doesn’t have a better build notice he ain’t posting anything to compare he knows he loses the comparison
He does and he's not ruining his health to get it, he's enhancing his.
Given the amount of gear you've used, and the length of time you've used it, you shouldn't even be close to him.
But you're going to continue to follow this path, when you're likely maxed out at your current drug levels.
Your only choice will be to accept this, change your training/focus, or up the dose.