Larry beat me to it, Mike. You gotta stop beating yourself up over your physique. Everyone can't look like Flex Wheeler or Dorian Yates. Dude, this is your first time ever doing something like this. Remember, those guys were doing some MAJOR stuff to get to the level that they attained, and that was on top of the incredible genetics they possessed. You're a good ways away from this competition, and I promise you, if you stay on target the way you are right now, you are going to impress yourself. I understand how you feel and what you're going through. But you can't compare yourself with the pros. The top tier guys have contracts and don't have 9-5 jobs like the rest of us. This is their life. I just encourage you to take it one day at a time. Put your head down and get after it for 12 weeks straight. When it's time to look up, as sure as I exist, you'll be pleased with the result. Why? Because no matter where you place (bb is very funny in that you never know who's gonna show up), you'll know that you've done your best. Keep a picture of yourself where you thought you looked your worst and compare it to the physique after you've competed. Yeah, you'll feel alot better.
Get at it, bro!
