I hit a zillion bottoms brother and each one was worse than the previous one.
Had to seek professional help which is something I swore I would never do, bit it saved my life.
I think the "hit rock bottom" cliche is kind of a joke. As no matter how bad things are, they could always be worse, and after each "bottom" there's another bottom, until you're dead.
When I start it out I thought watching my bank account go from $20,000 down to $15,000 was a bottom... then it hit 10,000, then 5000, which I thought was a bottom, etc... Overdosing could've been a bottom, then ODing again, and again, and again... Etc... There's always another bottom.
When I decided to stop nubain, going to na never crossed my mind much less going to rehab. I could still afford it, but supply was almost gone at that time, and I had zero connections for painkiller pills such as Oxycontin or Vicodin, not that they would have been an option anyways since nubain had completely fucked my tolerance at that point and oxycontin had zero effect on me this was long before I learned I had a genetic abnormality in the way my body metabolizes certain drugs, opiates in particular (p450 enzyme etc..), and at that time switching to heroin was not something I would have ever considered. Just made the decision to stop.
Making the
decision to stop is why most people who get clean actually
stay clean. Making the
decision to do something, is why anybody is successful at anything, IMO.