You should get back to your previous shape. Why did you fuck up so bad?
Statistically, leaner individuals, especially ones who have some sort of athletic shape to them, get ahead in life much easier and faster.
Lean athletic individuals
-Easily attract women
-Attract employers attention, in addition to getting paid more and being considered for better job positions(promotions)
-Physically healthier, which equates to less visits to the doctor's office, and consequently saving on medical bills.
-You'll have better confidence, self-esteem, and self-assurance/drive.
-Your mental health and function, in my opinion, is directly related to your physical health. This translates into depression, sluggishness, apathy and all that negative shit that hold people back in general.
I predict you're a shitter version of yourself atm, and you derive wtv confidence or drive you have now from past achievements.
Why did you fuck up so bad? Did you get married?