Dude, you are normal....
The only difference is, you ain't afraid to talk about shit.
We ALL have our crosses to bear.
We all have those same issues at some point in life whether we admit it or not.
You could be driving along and all of a sudden have a dizzy spell. Never had one before in your life, or maybe you did and just didnt pay it much mind...
But now, you stand up and take notice. You wonder if something is wrong? Your heart starts pounding, you start sweating, you get scared... you realize that maybe you aren't as invincible as you thought... you become more anxious.... the 'fight or flight' syndrome kicks in and you are now on red alert.
Here's the rub: Are you going to trip on this incident from here on out? Waiting, just looking and intensely feeling anything that might resemble this "episode?"... or, are you gonna let it go and move on with your life?
If you choose to obsess, trust me when I say, your mind will be more than happy to accommodate you in this venture.
There are actually people in this world who feel like total dog shit every second of every day, but they never say a word and even if they know what is causing them to feel this way, they don't stop that either. Why? Maybe because their daddy's taught them that you live, you work, you die and nothing gets in your way, ever. Or maybe they just dont give a fuck.
For those who feel that maybe they are attached to their kids, wives, girlfriends, grandkids, life.. whatever... maybe they feel they have something to lose and suddenly they feel that life is "fragile" just like everyone say's... so they spend their life... or should I say "they stop living".... now fear controls them.
Meanwhile, that other dude who is actually going out of his way to fuck himself up is just motating along as if nothing is wrong without a care in the world.
I know this isn't addressing the issue directly, but it is something to think about.