ideally i would have liked to lose another 23 lbs by xmas to reach 210lbs before going off the diet and eating all the nice xmas food i can for a week or 2, before knocking on and getting into sub 200 territory.

however that poland trip has knocked me back by a week or 2.
220-225 is probably a more realistic target, especially with all the xmas parties coming up with lots of drinking, good food etc
so my choice is to either go to those parties or stay home and stay on target

the great thing about this diet though is that its quite simply the greatest way ever to diet ( if you can even call it a diet). i know i can lose what i want with no trouble at all, the only thing is time. After all a calorie is a calorie

who knew

i cannot tell you all how frustrated i am that i let myself get that fat in the first place. Anyone who has ever been in shape then let themselves go like i did will understand the devastating effect it has on your life. literally everything in your life is affected by it. Nobody looks at you the same, nobody treats you the same. Your confidence and entire personality is changed.

i also can not tell you how frustrating it is trying so many diets and sticking to it for a while before failing with a massive binge of chinese takeaway, ice cream and chunky kitkats

it is been a godsend reading the books i have ( that i have mentioned earlier in this log), the hundreds of studies that i talk about on this site, and probably most of all wavelength and adonis's posts - which in reality gave me the belief that the mass media/magazines/ supplement companies etc were really wrong or lying like the things i was reading said i.e. scientific truth.
but thankfully that is all behind me no pun intended

now i know every week i am losing more fat.
This time last year i was up at over 280lbs - the difference in fitness and general well being from then till now is amazing. hell even my asthma is going away.
i ran up 3 flights of stairs the other day and i felt like superman, every leg thrust lifted me 4 steps at a time, and at the top i felt fine and wasn't out of breath.
if i tried that a year ago I'd be dead.

i feel almost invincible at the minute.
i think the cardio on the bike has helped this along with the weight loss in terms of fitness and well being.
i don't know what weight i will be when i am done, but i don't really care. i just know i want to be ripped ala wave and adonis in their pics.
i have never been ripped before, slim and in shape yes, but never ripped.
but i know dieting this way i can finally achieve it

i would guess at my height that maybe at 180lbs i would achieve that, maybe 160lbs at a push.
i guess we will find out

maybe getbig could start a book on it - the winner gets a signed photo of me, like the one below
